Damn it

Damn it he’s sweating again. This happens every time he talks to her. Luckily it feels as though the perspiration is, for the most part, running from his capped head down the back of his neck .So it shouldn’t be too obvious from her point of view directly ahead. But soon it will soak the back of his shirt making it look as though his shoulders had an accident. He quickly reminds himself not to turn his back to her; he doesn’t want any part of his body appearing incontinent.

“…and I couldn’t believe he would say that. I was just shocked, you know?” God her eyes were captivating.

Damn it he has no Idea what she’s talking about. He blinks at her and then realizes how awkward that probably appeared. So he strains to keep from blinking while simultaneously searching for an appropriate response to…whatever it is she has just said. She was talking about Josh and Karina, he remembered that much but just after hearing that he had been distracted by his…perspiratory malfunction.

“He’s a jerk.” Was all he could think to stay and, knowing her distaste for Josh, it seemed safe.

Blink. Thank god. Not blinking really dries out the eyes. Blink. Blink. Damn it. He had read somewhere that someone who is lying tends to blink a lot. What if she had read that too? What if she thought he was lying? He couldn’t risk that. Besides, if she felt strongly about this and he was taking Josh’s side, that can’t be good. Okay blink normally and show authenticity.

“I swear the guy is a total jerk. If…” Damn it. She had started talking again and his little outburst just interrupted her.

Now she’s just staring at him. Damn it. He needs to think of an end for the sentence but he still can’t figure out how much blinking is appropriate for the moment. He nervously turns to look behind him before remembering the now large puddle between his shoulder blades. He spins around and notices that his sudden movement has startled her. She looks confused.

“Sorry. I didn’t mean to interrupt.”

Good save. She still looks confused but at least she’s smiling. And what a smile it was.

“oh..no..it’s fine. He is a jerk. But like I was saying he is getting better and it really impressed me how he stood up for her.”

Wow. Not what he had expected. But at least he had caught up to her in the conversation.

“we’ll see how they do next week,” he says, “it’s the finale.”

Josh and Karina are the core characters on her favorite television show; a show he pretends to like as well. He doesn’t blame her for wanting to watch it. He actually isn’t sure many shows she has to choose from here in this place. What shows do these people watch anyway? Wouldn’t it be ironic if it was all of HIS favorite shows?

“…things going with your friend?” Damn it. She was talking again.

Maybe there’s some sort of signal she could give before she started speaking, something to snap him back to reality when he gets lost in his own thoughts. Well, at least this time he knows exactly what she’s talking about. She’s asking about his “friend” who supposedly saw what happened that night; his “friend” who is the only one who can get her out; his “friend” who refuses to testify. But he has no friend. He himself is the one who can get her out because it was him who murdered that girl and it was her who ended up taking the fall. His intended second murder victim had, in a strange twist, become instead an abnormal sort of hostage. But as long as he has a “friend” she will continue meet with him. Granted, the guards and the glass are bothersome but at least she looks forward to his visits. She even seems to enjoy the conversations. He’s never had that before and it is intoxicating.

“I meet with him today,” He lies, “we’re going to meet with a lawyer. My friend’s just afraid, you understand. The killer is still at large.”

He knows he can’t keep this up forever but he doesn’t like to think about that. His lies are what imprison her but without that barrier of lies she would surely hate him. After all, he only lies because he genuinely has feelings for her. If anything comes of them as a couple, these untruths will have been the seed from which it sprang. He had intended to have her but instead he has put her in a cold cell and convinced her that he is her only way out. He smirks. This line of thought makes him think that perhaps their relationship isn’t very abnormal after all.